But it is true. I love Lent. I have always loved Lent, although for reasons often only remotely connected with the real purpose of Lent. Take the diet of my childhood Lents, for example: Who can complain about abstinence when it means potato pancakes, macaroni and cheese with huge chunks of melting Cheddar (not that boxed stuff my own kids adore) and, wonder of wonders, my Czech grandmothers pirohy swimming in onions and butter. The "giving up" of Lent also offered great boosts to a childs self-esteem. I felt so noble about giving up penny fireballs that to this day I cannot eat them in Lent. And in those pre-ecumenical days, doing without candy or movies for 40 whole days made it quite obvious to us that we must be just a little bit better than everyone else, a point we were always quick to make known.
We lived in the church during Lent. I grew up in a family of Czech coal miners who still live, five generations of them, in the same small town and no doubt regard Vatican II with mixed feelings. In addition to the Sunday afternoon devotions, with the homily in Slavic, there were Wednesday night stations and Friday night benediction, with another Slavic homily, to round out a proper Lenten week. And confession every Saturday, of course, following my mothers dictum that if we should happen to die during the week we would still have made our Easter duty.
I probably should have developed a healthy hatred for Lent, maybe for religion in general, but somewhere beneath all the ritualized, too often trivial, practices of my childhood Lent, there was the feeling that this day for which we were preparing was of great importance. And there also lurked an almost tangible sense of a soon-to-be-realized hope, which I think forms the basis of my love for Lent. The anticipation of Advent is for a gift, the birth of the Child. In Lent the anticipation is for the Resurrection of this Child as the Messiah, requiring of us not merely an acceptance of Gods gift but a response of faith and commitment, which in turn holds out to us that for which we never cease to yearn-hope.
Lent never fails to offer us a second, or hundredth, chance. In the clutter of daily living, in the distractions and frustrations of the average life, how is it possible to make a careful appraisal of just where I am in relation to where I wish to be going, and what is impeding my way? The whole idea of Lent, the emphasis on the journey of Jesus toward His ultimate destiny, broadsides me with the necessity of taking careful stock of my own destiny and how I am moving ever closer, I hope, toward it. Lent provides me with 40 days in which to do this, long enough for the practice to become a habit, an engrained part of my life.
Lent means spring and laundering everything in the house, leaving it to hang for hours in the sun and wind and basking in the freshness of it all. My soul has constant need of this same spring cleaning, this clearing out of the dull and musty that I may more fully grasp the newness and freshness of the New Life promised me by Christ. My spirit seems at times as muffled in protective layers as is my body in the winter. What does this say about the possibility of openness, to God and my neighbor, about my acceptance of Gods love for me, and my response to His grace? What a terrible fate, to wear galoshes on my soul!
In the end, whats not to love about Lent? The penance I take upon myself is no longer giving up fireballs, but something as simple as striving for more patience with the children or as difficult as coping with the fact that middle age has crept up on me when I wasnt looking. Nonetheless, Lent is hope, it is renascence, it is promise. And I love it.